She’d go to a good school, wear nice shoes and perfume that stunk, and she’d major in… Something. Sports medicine. Business. Education. She’d figure it out. She’d find a major she didn’t hate and then she’d find a place at the beach to dive, and maybe even friends to dive with. And after diving they would all head to a bar and fill themselves with happy hour drinks.
Phoebe realized now the feeling she’d been so unsure of- or been so reluctant to accept. When she faced Silver, it was the same feeling that she got when she stared out over the ocean. His claws dipping into her felt like being plunged underwater. Struck and dragged down by a powerful wave. Phoebe flopped back down and cocooned herself under the covers, shifted and rolled over, then rolled again. The heaviness in her eyes and head felt oppressive now, the once-cozy blanket now hot and muggy.
She was no longer sure how many of her original desires she’d be able to have. Not with Silver, not with Connell after her, not with the unreality of her own immortal body. And there was another Phoebe, too. A shadow-Phoebe, the one who had made the wish, who she couldn’t pin down no matter how many times she’d combed her memories for gaps.
Accepting defeat and sitting up once more, the next hour was spent on her phone. Catching up on her handful of acquaintances and her zero friends. Trying, aimlessly, to find answers to all her problems. She spied the date--August 23rd--and was overcome by the sinking realization that the first day of class was getting closer and closer. She looked, again, at the course offerings at Stern, and the gen eds that she had signed up for. All of her luggage was already there. It had been shipped to the college ahead of time. For now she was just a visitor living out of a backpack, who was running out of time.
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